You see, I'm querying.
And querying = roller coaster. Ups, downs. Highs, lows.
Most of all, I think it's the adrenaline rush. Let me explain:
- You send out a query. ("I hope he/she likes it! I hope he/she likes it!" = adrenaline rush)
- Wait. (Check inbox 20 times per day = boring)
- A request for partial or full. (Happy dancing + Squealing + Running around the room in circles, startling all young children in the immediate vicinity = adrenaline rush)
- Send off requested partial or full. ("What if he/she hates it? What if he/she hates it?" + Occasional nightmares of agents sending hate mail and brandishing weapons to ensure you never write again = adrenaline rush)
- Wait. (Jump every time the phone rings + Check inbox 200 times per day = boring)
This is why working on a new project is GOOD.
This is also when it's important to use your self control-- force yourself to make good choices. For instance, "No, I do not need that extra brownie," and "Yes, it's okay to go on a walk and be away from
Poor Dashingly Handsome Sidekick. This is a typical conversation when he comes home from work:
DHS: How was your day?
DHS: What happened?
Me: Nothing. Nothing happened. That's the problem: nothing happened. (Unspoken: I checked my inbox 200 times instead of doing all that laundry that's piled up like Mt. Everest in our bedroom! I'm sorry! I'm a miserable failure! Just put me out of my misery!)
The good news is, tomorrow will be AWESOME!
I'll announce the winner of THE DEVIL SHE KNOWS giveaway, and I'm participating in Kristin Creative's blogfest -- writing a letter to my future self. Phew, something to do to stop the insanity.
See you then!