Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Be Back Soon

Just wanted to say bye-bye for a few days.

My daughter is having surgery on Thursday in Portland, so we're heading out tomorrow so she can have her pre-op check up. She's feeling good, which is HUGE, because a month ago she was incredibly stressed out. I thought one of the main culprits was that she was worrying about this surgery. But these last few days she's been giddy with excitement. Probably part of it is that she gets to miss school. And I think the idea of staying in a hotel with a pool the first night is also very exciting.

Her classmates wrote her notes today and her teacher made a book out of them for Olivia to take to the hospital (thank you, Miss Bowman!). Second graders are awesome, that's all I can say. Here's a sampling:

"Olivia good luck with your surgy I'll miss you. Oh yeay will you be my friend?" -- Wyatt

"I hope your surgery goes well. Thank you for being such a good friend. Why did the elefint cross the road? To crush the cars. Have a great time swiming. Your the best friend I could ever have. Have a good time. I'll miss you very, very, very, very, very, very, very much!" -- Lily

"Olivia you were a good friend to me. I will miss you. I wish you were not in the hospero good loak ok I am thing of you." -- Yurely

"Hope you have a good time swimming Olivia and remember you are as bright as the sun. And you are so good to me and I hope you get better and you be good girl! Have a wonderful time I love you Olivia." -- Savannah

"We miss you good luck Olivia. We care about you. We hope you get beter soon Olivia. We wish you luck Olivia. Why couldn't the spaceship land on the moon? Because it was already full." -- Luke

In other, less-important news, I got all our plants and bulbs in the ground today. Yippee! I can drive away tomorrow morning with a clear conscience.

Hope you all have a great rest of your week. I'm off to finish packing....

A Story A Week: Delicious

Delicious was named after her old Grammy, her Grammy with doughy arms, who smelled of sweat and lilacs. She was nigh on eighty years old, but she could make a mean hash for breakfast from the potatoes in her garden, and a pot roast for dinner that smelled up the house real good. Young Delicious could taste that roast all the way from the bottom of the walk.

Delicious – Young Delicious, that is – loved going to her Grammy’s. She loved coming up to the front porch and hearing the creak of Grammy’s rocker. Loved the way the elms sounded rustling around in the wind. She’d tap her stick around a bit until she found the porch steps. “Here I am, Grammy!” she’d call out.

“Well, look who walked over here all by herself!” Grammy would say, and Delicious would hear the clip-clump of her thick-soled shoes across the creaky boards of the porch.

Delicious would reach up and touch the rough wood, feel the peeling paint under her fingertips. “You need to paint this house, Grammy,” she would say. Always the same. That’s what she’d say. It was like a pattern. She figured if she didn’t say it, Grammy would think she wasn’t herself. Might make her drink a whole spoonful of molasses to get her right again.

“Yes, I do,” Grammy would say, just as if she’d never thought on it before. “Gotta get myself a boy out here to do the painting, ’cause I’m getting too old for the ladder.”

And Delicious would say, “You not too old, Grammy.”

Every time she said it, Grammy acted like it was the most precious thing in the world. She'd laugh, a big laugh, and hug Delicious so that her face was pressed into her bosom where she couldn’t just hear, but feel the laughter – a deep vibration way down in Grammy’s core.

“Oh, honey baby,” Grammy always said. “If only you could see me, you’d see how old I am!” Then, she’d laugh some more, spin Delicious around and take her all dizzy up the rickety porch steps into the house.

That’s where things got tricky for Delicious. She needed her stick the most inside, because Grammy’s house was never the same two visits in a row. Grammy was a changer. She changed her furniture around like most people change their socks.

Delicious stuck out her stick and knocked into something.

“Here, let me take you,” Grammy said, taking hold of her elbow.

“No, Grammy,” Delicious said. She actually enjoyed the challenge. “I can make it. It’s good practice. Like a maze.”

Grammy laughed. “One of these days I’ll really surprise you and not change anything around at all.”

But Delicious knew changing was part of Grammy. Where her furniture sat was the one thing Grammy could change about her life.

“Right back here in the kitchen,” Grammy called, as Delicious made her way – tap, tap, tap. “Then I’m gonna sit you down and feed your little skin-and-bones body.”

Delicious stood in the kitchen doorway with that furnace heat tingling on her cheeks, and the meaty smell of roast sizzling in her nostrils.

The chair scraped over the linoleum when Grammy pulled it out. When Delicious sat down, she crossed her ankles like her ma taught her, and propped her stick up next to the chair.

Grammy chattered. “You heard about Old Man Huff, didn’t you? Fell down the stairs and broke his leg in two.”

“No!” Delicious said. “I didn’t hear about that.”

“Oh!” Grammy said. “I suspected it was all over town by now.”

“Is he gonna be okay?”

“Well, if they can get it straight again, he might walk,” Grammy said. “And if they can keep it from gangrening, he might live.”

“Oh,” Delicious said. “I hope he can walk and live.”

“I don’t care much either way,” Grammy said. “You know, he tried to court me once. Pulled up in front of my mammy’s house in his old pa’s surrey and expected me to ride out with him, just because he was in a surrey. Even though I’d never liked him one minute when we was in school together.

“My mammy, she got so mad at me when I turned him down, told me I’d never find a man as rich as Leonard Huff who wanted to ride out with me again.”

“But then you met Grandpa and married him instead,” Delicious said.

“Yes, I did,” Grammy said, opening the oven with a screech. “Though he wasn’t as rich as Leonard Huff, I sure was happier. Didn’t want a man with a temper, so I got your Grandpa instead. Meek as a lamb. Then again, all your grandpa ever gave me was a puny little girl, probably on account of all that meekness.”

“My ma,” Delicious said proudly.

“Your ma,” Grammy said. “And one little blind grandchild to show from her. Not much if you ask me.” She sucked in her breath. “Maybe if I’d married the man with the temper and the money and not for love – known my duty – God would’ve rewarded me with a motor car full of sons.”

“And a house with good paint,” Delicious added.

“And a house with good paint,” Grammy said wistfully.

Delicious couldn’t see Grammy smile, but she heard the smile in her voice. “But you know what, Delicious?”

“Yes, Grammy?” Delicious said, flashing a grin, because she knew exactly what Grammy was going to say, even though their conversation had never been exactly like this before.

“I wouldn’t do it," Grammy said. "I wouldn’t trade it. Even if I knew about how my life would be now, I would’ve chose the same way.”

Delicious giggled. Silly Grammy. Always trying to fool her into thinking she didn’t love her and her ma, when it was more obvious than a porcupine quill in a mutt’s rump that she did.

There was a clatter as Grammy set the big pot on the stove top. “So, that’s why you follow your heart,” Grammy said. “So even when the paint’s peeling, you still have some respect for yourself.”

“Yes, Grammy,” said Delicious. She picked up her fork, ready as anything to taste that pot roast.

Monday, April 26, 2010

Spring: A Mad, Mad Season

I fell asleep sitting up and had three separate dreams before Sophie came and hit me with a book.

I have been battling crab grass. My whole body hurts, and I am dressed in droopy, dirty clothes. My feet are perpetually dusty-feeling. But I must get all these small plants I ordered in the ground soon. I must!

This is Spring, ladies and gentlemen.

I think writers everywhere are going through the same thing, more or less. Spring has come and we suddenly awaken from our winter snooze. It was fun hibernating in front of our computers, lazily squirting out novel pages. But now Spring is here.

We are no longer content to sit in front of our computer screens. There's work to be done outside. And even if we have no work outside, nobody wants to stay inside very long. Our children are escaping out the front door, and we must go with them!

And yet, conference season cometh. It is nearly upon us.

So, we wait till dark and patter away at the keys, madly trying to polish up that WiP in time. We take blog holidays in a desperate attempt to catch up. Our dirty dishes sit idly by the sink. Our laundry piles nearly reach the ceiling. We know it won't be long before they topple and bury us.

Spring for a writer is a mad, mad season.

That, my friends, is why I sometimes fall asleep sitting up.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Editing

I think writing a short story every week is actually helping me with my editing. Really.

I'm taking every section of my novel and pretending it's a short story. Not that it needs a beginning, middle, and end. It doesn't need to stand alone. But it's amazing how (for me) this little switch in perspective helps me to see where I've been too wordy, where I need more description, and where my dialogue is too lengthy.

It helps me to look at my novel in shorter chunks.

Have you tried this method? Or is this something that everyone does already and I'm just now catching on? *grin*

I know many of you are editing gurus. Do you have any tips to share from editing your own work?

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

WiP Wednesday: Did I Say Deadline?


I think I said a few weeks ago that I needed a deadline.

Well, I officially have a deadline. A self-imposed deadline. I registered for the SCBWI summer conference this morning (July 30 - Aug 2, if you're interested!). I also signed up for a one-on-one critique of my manuscript while I'm at the conference, which means I need to have the WiP in some sort of completed form and in the mail by June 9 (yes, of this year).

(Excuse me while I freak out.)

But honestly. What was I thinking?!?

So if my posts are short and sweet over the next month or so, you'll know why. I'm keeping my writing priorities straight. I'm slogging through edits on my WiP. Considering I'm only about 23 pages into my second draft, um, I have a lot of work to do.

Meanwhile, Sophie has an ear infection, so I spent the entire day holding her. Can't afford too many sick days like this. Better make sure my kids get that memo. *wink*

Anybody else racing against time with a writing project? Commiseration, anyone?

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Thirty-three

I'm thirty-three today, which is a middle-of-nowhere kind of number. I'm not extremely young anymore, but I'm not old yet. I'm not actually in my early thirties, but not in my mid-thirties either. Thirty-three is hard to define.

I was born on April 20, which is a groaner birthday for a number of reasons. For one, I share it with Adolf Hitler. Because of this, yucky things tend to happen on my birthday. Columbine is one example.

Four-twenty is also National Smoke Pot Day. I didn't know that until I was twenty-one and went to a bar for one of the first times. The guy at the door checking IDs laughed at me. I had no idea what he found so funny. "Four-twenty? Dude, is that seriously your real birthday? That's freakin' awesome, man!" I stumbled inside still clueless. My friend had to fill me in later.

But even though I'm neither old nor young, and even though I quite possibly have the world's worst birth date, I feel so thankful tonight.

I just came home from a wonderful dinner with my darling husband and my in-laws. My mother-in-law outdid herself on the dinner, and bought a chocolate gelato cake for dessert. They broke out some of their best red wine.

About a hundred friends near and far wished me happy birthday on facebook, which makes me overwhelmed and happy all at once. And tomorrow I get to register for my big birthday present: the SCBWI summer conference.

It's raining outside as I type this. I love the sound of rain on the roof, the earthy breeze that wafts through open windows. Young, old, or somewhere in between, tonight I'm so content, I could curl up and purr.

A Story A Week: Keeping Him Sane

Martin killed the grass. I can see it, blond and brittle, from my bedroom window. Behind me, the phone rings.

It’s Martin. “I forgot to put the bins out, Sharon! And all those piles in the back yard, they have to go today! I’ve got to plant when I get home and if those weeds are still there—!”

“I’ll take care of it.” I use the gentle voice, the voice I use when Martin overreacts. “I’ll clean up the piles and get the bins out to the curb.”

“Really?” His voice cracks. “You don’t mind.”

“I don’t mind.”

“You have time?”

No, not really. “I always have time for you,” I say. “Everything will be okay.”

Hanging up, I slip the silver posts of my pearl earrings through my punctured earlobes, and hurry down the hallway to the garage for my work gloves. Granny-Smith-apple green, they match the pendant hanging from a silver chain around my neck, a cold nugget against my chest.

My four-inch heels sink into crumbling earth as I work. Twenty minutes later, I flap the lid closed on the green disposal bin, shutting out the odor of rotting food, mixed with the damp scent of the pine needles and weeds.

I don’t have time for yard work. I haven’t unloaded the dishwasher and the tile in the kitchen feels gritty when I walk in bare feet. Not to mention that I’m meeting with a client in half an hour. I notice a smudge of mud on my blouse when I glance down. Another thing to do. I’ll change it, then hit the road and pray for a clear highway.

I won’t think about Martin, about all the times I’ve lied to him, or changed my schedule to keep him sane. I won’t worry that these stresses devoid of consequences are piling up on his head so that he can’t bear his own skin. I return to the house to rinse my hands in cold water.

Back in my bedroom, the dead grass out the window looks like a picture I’ve framed and hung on the wall. I should be the one to rake it up and plant new seed, water it and toil over it so that Martin can sleep better at night. Tomorrow, when I’ve secured this account, when I’ve had time to mop the floor, then I’ll worry about the grass.

Sighing, I toss the dirty blouse into the laundry basket and slip a clean one off the hanger. Fastening the pearly buttons with trembling fingers, I catch a glimpse of my face in the mirror. I’m a stranger: silver streaks in her hair, creases around her mouth, and wrinkles like tree roots sprouting from the corners of her eyes.

“He’s a good man,” I tell the person in the mirror, using the gentle voice I always use when she asks me why I love him. “He needs me … he does need me.”

Monday, April 19, 2010

Pop Quiz

The other day I thought I was going to have a free hour. In other words, my husband was taking all the children AWAY and I was going to have the house entirely to myself. (When you're a mom with four kids under the age of eight, a free hour is a pretty exciting prospect.)

I spent most of the day dreaming about how I was going to spend my hour.

All the day dreaming got me wondering -- how would my friends spend a free hour? So, here's a pop quiz. You have a free hour. Would you spend it:

A. Lying on the sofa watching TV

B. Napping

C. Reading that book you just can't put down

D. On the computer with your WiP

E. Exercising

F. Cleaning

G. Gardening

H. None of the above

And just so you know, my hour didn't actually materialize. Something at school held up the darling husband and I had to leave for an appointment right after he got home. But it was nice dreaming....

Still, I'm curious. You only have an hour. How would you spend it? I know what I would do!

I hope you are all having a day filled with sunshine -- and many free hours!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Gardening

I've discovered gardening for the first time in my life.

Today I pulled weeds and dug up root systems in an attempt to eradicate the crab grass problem. I have my own pair of girly work gloves that I picked up at Fred Meyer. They're so pretty. They keep the dirt out from under my nails and I look fashionable at the same time. (tee-hee)

I've never really gardened before. I had my window of potted plants in China, but that was about it.

Gardening is a lot like writing. It's hard to stop once you get started. There's always one more thing that you just have to do before you quit for the day.

The kids love it outside. They have their little shovels and rakes. My husband bought them their own miniature work gloves. They're happy indefinitely.

It's a win-win.

Plus, I can garden with my broken toe and still get a bit of exercise.

Today was so beautiful ... and I learned that magnolias smell good.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

WIP Wednesday: Taking Stock


I'm not an organized person. I don't sit down on a certain day every year and take inventory of my life. But, occasionally, usually by accident, I'll realize something I'm doing isn't exactly what I want to be doing.

Many have come to similar conclusions before me. I guess now is just my time. But honestly, I'm getting too wrapped up in blogging, and reading blogs, and all this networking stuff.

I complained to my husband in the car yesterday: "I haven't had any time to work on my novel!"

"You haven't?!" He was floored. "Then what are you doing when you stay up late at night?"

I told him I was either blogging, or commenting on blogs, or Facebooking, or working on my short stories.

I'm planning on attending the SCBWI summer conference this year. I would like to go with an at least semi-polished novel in tow. If I went today, I would have nothing but a bad first draft and a couple of shelved novels that flopped in Queryland.

I want to finish this book. Not that I'm expecting to pick up an agent and a contract while I'm in LA. No. But it would be nice to give a pitch or a writing sample, and be able to stand behind it, knowing it's the best I have to offer.

So, I'm hereby switching gears. I love blogging. I love the writing online community. This isn't goodbye. It's just a little break. I'll still be posting. Just not as much. And commenting when something especially moves me.

I just need to get my writing priorities straight. When you're an unpublished fiction writer, networking shouldn't be the top priority. Writing should be.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

A Story A Week: For Love of a Pear

After Emilia picked the pear, she held it in her palm, turned it over once, and waited.

She heard Seth panting up the slope behind her. She did not turn around.

“Couldn’t catch you,” he said, jogging around to face her, his sneakers crunching over gravel. He stood in the shade of the pear tree, leaf shadows playing tag across the folds of his wheat-colored hair. She noticed his red t-shirt, rings of sweat accenting the contours of his belly. Seth was one of those boys who might benefit from the use of a man-bra.

“Want a pear?” she asked him, holding out the pale green fruit.

“No thanks,” he said, waving her hand away. “I’m saving it.”

“Saving what?” she asked.

Seth smiled with only half his mouth. “The calories. I’m heading out with my dad to Stuff-o-Mania after this. We’re sharing one of their big pans of hash.”

Emilia knew Stuff-o-Mania hash was more than potatoes. It was sausage, jalapenos, and crispy, fried onions, covered in layers of cheese. The big pan was the size of the four-person diner table. If you ate it single-handedly (single-mouthedly?) they gave it to you free.

“You’re actually going to share it with your dad?” Emilia asked as she raised the pear to her lips. This was the whole reason she’d come up here before the heat of the day: to grasp one of Mr. Lopez’s Comice pears, to bring it to her lips. To let her teeth sink into it.

Seth lifted one shoulder in a shrug. “I tried one time to finish the whole thing. Couldn’t do it.” He looked down at the dirt, traced a pattern with the toe of his shoe. Emilia wondered if he were ashamed at his failure.

“Oh well,” she said. Honestly, she didn’t care. Her thoughts were on the fruit. Pears fascinated her: the juiciness without the crispness. Sweetness without tartness. Pears were plain, honest, unassuming. They never disappointed.

Seth had seen her when she passed the convenience store. She'd seen him inside, but pretended she hadn't. He’d followed her. She hadn’t turned around when he called her name. She often claimed deafness when it was convenient. Said her dad yelling at her when she was a kid broke one of her ear drums.

As she chewed, she watched a droplet of sweat trickle down Seth’s flushed cheek.

There was something beautiful about the quiet of the pear orchard. Emilia wanted it all to herself. How many more words would it take to chase him away?

“So, why are you up here?” she asked. Direct questions were sometimes best in these situations.

Seth flinched. He opened his mouth. Emilia thought he was going to speak, but he let his jaw hang loose too long. Emilia had that feeling: dread rising like flood water in a canal.

“I—” Seth began. At least it was a sound.

“Yes?” Emilia scratched at the skin of the pear with her fingernail.

“I just wondered if Micah….” His cheeks burned the color of fat tomatoes.

Emilia let the hand holding the pear drop to her side. She felt a droplet of juice drip onto her shin and dribble down to the elastic of her sock.

Seth tried to recover. “I – just – you know….”

“Does this have anything to do with Homecoming?” Emilia kept her voice perfectly level.

“Well, yeah, I—”

She swallowed. “I’m sorry, Seth. I’m not going. Not with Micah, not with anybody.”

When she glanced up, she saw that Seth’s eyes were crinkled. “So, it’s not—”

“It’s not you,” she said, shaking her head so that her ponytail flipped from side to side.

“You just—”

“Dances aren't my thing,” she said.

“Okay,” he said.

“But thanks for the thought.” She smiled.

Seth nodded, shaggy hair flapping into his eyes. “Okay.” He turned away. “See you around, I guess.” He raised one arm in a sort-of salute.

“Bye,” Emilia said, and watched him gallop down the hill.

When the back of his head finally disappeared behind the ridge, Emilia tipped her head back to gaze at the blue sky. Then, she returned to her first love. Fresh pear.

Summer Recap

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